Before this, I posted bad things about you. Omaidays. I am so sorry. I don`t know how to say this. I just don`t know what has happen to me. I feel bad. I`m crying right now. God, I seriously miss you. I think I`m just jealous of your life and all making me be like this. How much sins I have done by just saying bad things about you without even knowing what you suffered. Every person who is with me knows I hate you. All i done to describe you to people are just all the bad stuffs without telling them what goodness have you made me become.
Before this, I use to tell people who don`t know you with bad things. Saying you destroyed my life and all. Saying you left me without a word. Saying you became a lot worse without me now. Hell yeah. That was my mistake. If I didn`t say those words to people, they won`t know who you are. If they learn anything about you from yourself they might think you`re the best friend that they could be with. I just told bad things about you. Reading your blog made me realize how a fool I was. How childish I was. How mature you handled this, How calm you faced all this. When I wasn`t there. It`s not that you left me, it was because you wanted a friend that could hear you out. It was because I wasn`t there to lend my shoulders for your sorrow. I`m sorry.
I wish you read this even though I know there isn`t a single person reading this. I just hope you read this. It`s been ages. But thanks to you who made me realize that hatred won`t solve anything. I just want to apologize to you. I am too embarrassed to tell you directly and I know that you read this one day sooner or later. Even if you`re not that`s fine. At least my misery for all this years are gone. Hopefully.

I know you`ve got another best friend who is better and the one that can hear your sorrow. I am just here to tell you that I am sincerely sorry. Just to let you know that I love as my friend forever. Some friendships might not last but who knows whats in their heart. Their sorrow no one knows. Just so you know that I apologize with all my heart. Miss you always. Even when I say to people bad things about you, in my heart it hurts.
I guess that`s all. I wish I could express more about how i feel. Seriously. You were the best friend ever. Love you girl. Smile always.

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